Dear x-pdoc,

I have had so many emotions surrounding the letter I sent you especially while waiting for a response. I remind myself daily that the real loss is yours if you choose not to take me back as a patient. I can find a psychiatrist as good or better than you but you won't get to see the transformation that's happening to me regardless of how many patients you have...if it's not me. I do have so much anger in regards to your non-response so far. I also have some varying degrees of sadness with your seeming disinterest. All of that said, I realize the real loss is yours but you will probably never know because you'll never see what you are missing. You still have time to take me up on my offer but I doubt that will happen. My guess is if you haven't responded in the first week the reality is you probably never will. The strength I'm finding I have is far greater than I could have ever imagined and in part I owe DBT some thanks for that. Well, you'll never read this but it felt soooo good to get it all out.