You have been so supportive thank you!!

I have had some counselling but it only goes so far. It doesn't solve the very real problems in this situation. Sadly my mother has a lot to answer for leaving her affairs in such a manner as to exclude me from everything. My father will be turning in his grave if he knew what she had done. To ask me to read her Will on her deathbed was the act of an extremely sick and resentful woman. She gave no reason for what she did to me. She left this world wanting me to know that she hated me and she wanted to see my face when I found out everything was to go to my brother, even all family photographs. I think she had many issues in her own life that meant she never could be happy for me or want me to grow into an independent person. She told me six years ago that she was sexually abused as a teenager and it explains much of her behaviour over the years. When I have had any success in life she has resented it. She tried to control me from an early age and seemed to be attempting to continue that from beyond the grave.

My brother has handled all the legalities appallingly and with no compassion for me at all. He fails to see how his behaviour or my mother's actions have torn me apart. The lawyers have indicated to me that he has gone out of his way to hurt me as much as he can and his actions and that of my mother can only be described as vindictive, controlling and somewhat gloating. I am in a state of shock with it all. I am sure Aspergics would be reasonable as far as is possible when told of the hurt caused. Wouldn't an Aspergic want to try to heal wounds even if they didn't quite understand all the emotions involved? My brother is delighting in it though. I feel incredibly sad about the whole situation and cry most days about it. At the moment I see him as an evil person. I never did anything wrong other than grow up but I've been left with all their issues to have to deal with. It is too much.