I also just want to sleep. Unfortunately, what I want and what the world gives to me are often two very different things.

Ah, insomnia.

It is nice to hear, though, that you attempt to be positive, in spite of all this darkness. Sometimes that's the only thing I can do to get through the day. And surprisingly, it's not always a futile attempt. Sometimes it actually works.

Sorry to quote such an overused song, but keep on believing.