I've been wondering lately if the way I feel is just me, or do others think/feel the same way.

I'm not suicidal, well, I'm not acting on it and do not plan to.

Ok, so my question!

I find myself saying or thinking I wish I was dead about 20-30 times a day. Sometimes more, sometimes less. I know I would not act on it, so that's not the issue, its just the thought

Am I alone?