I'll say from personal experience that unprompted wishes to die usually come before the actual suicidal thoughts come. /:

If you feel you're ready, reach out to at least one person and tell them how you've been feeling, if you haven't already. Though speaking about wanting to die out loud often makes it more real, it will be so much better in the long run to know you have someone close to you that can help you get through the tough times to come.

Good luck c: