The strange delusions and heartbreak when reality hits me in the face and i see they aren't real. I'll even bring it up in conversation, as if it happened that day, but one look from my friends and a quick nod, and it lets me know i was wrong. But sometimes its just a torture to know that some of my happiest memories never actually happened. But the most embarrassing thing definitely (Sorry that first thing is rather depressive than embarrassing. Is where i have "special" dreams and wake up sore in all the wrong places (Also I'm such a perv.)...Plus i talk so fast sometimes, it's like a ferrari i can't hit the brakes on. kzdjfhsjkdfbsdfkuvbsdf alot of the time.