Hi UM, maybe having a bit more focus in knowing that the brighter times are coming could help?? They may not last long, but they do come, they do break through.
I know that might not help a lot if you're going through dark times but there still can be a hope there. And when the happier times are coming just try to hold onto them as long as you can. I know that can be completely out of your control at times but if you can just try to hold onto the thoughts/feelings/memories of that feeling of happiness.
Maybe at some point you could write down the feelings when you're happy to remind yourself of them, even if you can't feel that again at times when reading it, at least you'll know you can do it.
So maybe cherish the "happy" where you can instead of being scared to say it???? You need that maybe??? And it's definitely something to celebrate after/with the amount you have struggled at times!!!
If you're needing to sleep more, you know depression can take so much out of you, don't complain at yourself about that!! You need a bit extra rest, you have a bit of extra rest!!!
Just try to line yourself up with/schedule in the tasks you can do (one's for you as well as others if you can!), Whatever may help you feel just a little more motivated.
But really well done on the trying to be positive bit, even if you can't do it much, even if it's not working that much, you can only try. And it is something!!!!
Alison
P.S. sending just a little sun into that darkness: