She was talking about how I needed some structure and told me to next time, try and look presentable.... wtf.

I was wearing an old sweater that had a stain on it, and it wasn't like a fresh streak of ketchup and hot sauce stain, just a faded white line. I also wore some sweatpants. It's freezing outside. I felt like, and even said, that something like that shouldn't even matter in THERAPY. She said "are you feeling embarrassed that this is coming from a girl?" and I said "No, I'm embarrassed because it's coming from a therapist."

It's not like I'm applying for a job or going to an event or anything... it's therapy. Why do I need to worry about how I look? She even said "if I was dressed super casually and was laying back in my chair and etc, would you take me seriously?" and I said "honestly and genuinely, I still would 100%". She doubted that I was telling the truth.

I get what she's trying to do. She's trying to get me to care about it so that maybe I'll feel better and to get some structure. Like a mom who tells her kid to get a haircut because it's getting messy. But I don't want that. All it did was make me annoyed. I already have low esteem, why make me feel self conscious about something else? I already got enough of 'LOOK PRESENTABLE' from my mom as a kid growing up, I really don't need it again in a place that doesn't matter.

I'll still try her out because I can tell that she does care, and so far it's hit and miss in the ways that she does. It's only been 3 visits so far.