My mother was emotionally abused by her mother all her childhood and could never forgive her for that. As an adult she was always angry at her mother; she called her every day and I recall we often visited her on weekends. Every visit ended with my mother yelling at hers and her mother saying something along the lines of "don't worry, soon you will be happy" hinting at her future death. I remember my mother worrying about how she would react to this, she wanted to look like a normal grieving daughter but was worried she would not be able to. I recall looking at my mother at the funeral and so no happiness and signs of her crying earlier. And I thought, "this looks right, sadness and all..." I don't recall us talking about my grandmother after her death because my mother was too busy bullying my family and blaming me for being a bad daughter but once she told me that every morning she wakes up and cries because she feels guilty for how she always yelled at her mother...
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