I was on an inpatient unit for 7 of the most miserable days of my life. I talked about being suicidal with only a vague plan. After seven days and a nearly $7,000 bill, I went home just as bad. If there is a university around you, maybe there are programs that they have. You might only get graduate students, but it's better than nothing. By the way, the inpatient stay was bad because all that I had there was supervision for safety. It was not for me. Specialized treatment for depression is very difficult to find, probably because depression is so difficult to treat...