I would agree with this if I wasn't leaving every session feeling more hopeless and hating myself even more than ever, at least recently, and wondering whether there's even any point to it anymore. I want to stick with current T for now, but I also want to see what else is out there.

Aside from which, it was current T who suggested (multiple times) last week that I might need a new T instead of or in addition to her. And the most frustrating part about that was that she said it once; I said, "Okay, I've thought about it and I will continue to think about it," but she kept saying it, over and over again, even when I told her that her telling me I might need a new therapist felt like abandonment. She was like, "I'm sorry you feel that way, but I wouldn't be behaving ethically if I didn't keep telling you." And I was like, "I heard already. I told you I'd think about it. Let's stop talking about it now."

But no, she kept bringing it up intermittently throughout the session and then at the end asked me if I still wanted an appointment with her next week. That to me was the last straw, so I told her yes I wanted an appointment next week, but I would also do as she suggested and consider other options.

The funny thing is, having two Ts would be less expensive than having T and the DBT group...