Not being able to figure out what is true and what is not when I'm too far down or too far up.

Not knowing whether my emotions are appropriate or blown out of proportion.

Not being able to control my anger when that part of the cycle hits me. Even when I know that I have no reason to be angry.

But more than all of those, I hate not being able to trust myself and the decisions I make. (When I'm not stable)

I don't know... I don't think I expressed this very well right now.

Oh, and I hate that even good changes can push me off the cliff.

And I hate that I way too often end up telling everyone how ****ing fantastic I am.