1. I feel the similar to WFC. But I avoid ppl so they do not see I'm not like them.

2. I feel really out of place a lot even among others with BP because I do not get much depression/suicide. I feel like an outcast bc I'm on the opposite end of the spectrum mania/homicide.

3. I hate the mixed episodes and pure manic ones too. I've been hospitalized twice bc of mixed episodes with extreme mania and psychosis. I do no like crying and being extreme pissed off so bad I'm ready to explode all at the same time.

3. For some weird reason I now have no remorse for the things I do, try to do or say to ppl when I'm ill.

4. I hate the side effects from meds. My meds do help me to an instant. After my onset (prior to taking meds) and after taking them I notice cognitive dysfunctions. Problems with reading, focusing, coordination etc....

5. I hate worrying abt having health insurance.

6. I hate worrying abt working three times as hard to get a job now. I'm a double minority now but I'm trying to hide one.

7. I hate tell the gov'n all my biz and busting my axx for damn near two years. Knowing all the while it's still a roll of the dice.

8. Like others I get tired of people looking terrified when u get u the nerve to tell them u have BP. Afterwards ur kicking yourself thinking "shxt she's usually open minded".


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