Sometimes coming on PC is all kinds of confusing with all the contradictory advice...get a new T; stay with old T. You need a warmer T; you need a boundaried T. You should go with your gut re a queer T; you should be equally open to a straight T. Your T was wrong; you were wrong; both of you were wrong; everything was wrong. It's so complicated that sometimes I don't even want to do this whole therapy thing anymore...it feels like everything is just getting screwed up. There are no answers; having a queer T will suck, having a straight T will suck, having a boundaried T will suck, having a warm T will suck, staying with old T already sucks, getting a new T will probably suck even more...

I don't have the answers, I don't know how to find the answers, and I feel completely incompetent and like I'm just ruining everything all the time always. My anxiety is getting worse, not better, and I don't know if it's this T or therapy itself or my current situation in life right now or if it's just that there's something wrong with me. Probably the latter.