There's nothing wrong with you. It's totally okay to give all this a little time and let things fall into place. Advice and opinions can be overwhelming. As hard as all this is, there's no emergency and it sounds like you're very resourceful and know yourself well. You'll figure it out and find the solution that works for you.

You know when everyone gives pretty similar advice on this forum? When the OP is in a dire situation and/or a T is being seriously unprofessional. For the greyer areas advice is all over the map. You just need to see what resonates best with you and accept that no solution is going to be perfect.