it matters because YOU matter, SS! you don't deserve to keep hurting, and it seems to me that life has put more than enough pain in your path. i don't blame you for si, of course, so don't ever think that. i know what it's like when you finally just break down and decide to stop fighting the urge. i feel for you, and i hope you can find other ways of working through this.

i am so sorry about all of the things that aren't going well for you right now: work, your insurance and meds, your asthma, etc. and i wish there was something i could do to make it all better for you. the only thing i can do, though, is be your friend. and that i will do!

(((((((((((((((((((SS8282))))))))))))))))))))))

best wishes to you, and please take care of yourself as best you can right now!!!

Angela (SC)

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-