So last night after my panic anxiety stress attack brought by waiting for him to call me since he promised he was going to call and never did. I called him a zillion times and text. I posted on the forum then My phone died. I spent the night on what I call my bed nowadays which is my friend's couch. I couldn't sleep and had a hard time getting to sleep. Somehow I forgot about the phone and just cried all night. Until this morning my friend had to go to work and told me to feta grip. That he is not worth it. That he is probably having fun somewhere while I want to die. I managed to sleep a little but in my dreams I was reliving my problems. Only this time my ex had a reason not to want to be with me. Because of another woman. In my dreams I cried just like in real life uncontrollably. I would wake up and went back to sleep again and the dream would pick up from what I left off. Never had a sequence dream like that. So when I finally saw my phone. I noticed he called. Last night at 1 am and 2. Not before I sent a final text saying not to bother calling. I got very angry and found one second of strength telling him how much he had hurt means for him to have a nice life. I was so angry I cursed him out. Well today he has been calling me all day. No messages no texts just calls and I haven't pick up. I am dying inside to pick up but I am not. Not sure how much longer I can keep this up. Knowing me I probably will call him later is Friday night and he will be going out I'm sure and the thought of not knowing who is he with kills me. So I need strength. I tried keeping busy today. Had a job interview for the position I really want. Is going to be super hard to get it. They told me they are been super picky. And selective. But I just hope for a chance fora second interview. So right now I'm waiting on 3 jobs interview. I want to work tomorrow. Give my life somekind of structure. So I pray for the best. What does this sequential dream means? Maybe is a warning that he is with another woman? Can anybody give me their thoughts? And why is he calling me now. After I sent a final text saying don't look for me and have a good life. Any thoughts?