Hi all. I've been practicing law, solo, since 2003. I worked for myself because I could hide my decompressions [not a clinical term, my own! lol] and suicide attempts. I am 54 yo, and had to quit practicing law because I was unable to cope with life and the stress. I'm on a list to start substitute teaching, but right now my agitation, confusion, and anger is very high. I have collected many diagnoses in my life: BPD, PTSD, Chronic Major Depression, and the most long term and recent: Major Mood Disorder with psychotic symptoms. I have many hospitalizations. I just saw a new MD and she says that she thinks I have Bipolar 1. I also just saw a psychiatric Nurse Practitioner. He said it is too soon for a diagnosis, but put me on Saphris. I'm still not doing well. So, I applied online for SSDI, not sure I can get it. But I would welcome any feedback about whether I should just keep trying to survive [I'm broke] or if I should substitute teach. I'm afraid of going into a classroom, mainly due to my long time inability to cope with stress and my anger/agitation. I appreciate your feedback! Hopeful Camel
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Saphris 5mp
Tegretol 800 mg
Lamictal 150 mg
Topomax 25 mg [weird, I know? used to be 200mg]
Clonopin 2mg