One time I dreamt that I was on a road trip and stopped to go to the bathroom at a restaurant, and some guy busted in and watched me pee. I yelled at him, and continued to watch.

I had no idea what this meant.

So I'm telling T about this, and we are talking about it in more depth and all of a sudden it hits me....

I said, "OH MY GOD."

And T didn't say anything, he just understood. He knew I got it.

The guy in the dream represented T. He didn't look anything like him, but it represented my fear of exposure to T. I had been oblivious to it the whole time, and was discussing the dream freely because I thought it was a "safe" subject.

I wanted to die. I wanted to crawl under the chair and die.

But we got through it.