This is why I believe I can get myself out of trouble with Zyprexa and take it only when I need to when I can't sleep. I know I did have a hypomanic phase before my 2nd manic episode, but during this time I didn't do anything disruptive and I was still sleeping ok and was functioning ok at work. I wish I had Zyprexa when I could feel myself tipping over, I knew when I needed help, and I'm confident that I will know again, but now having Zyprexa will make all the difference and I can avoid psychosis as it works instantly.

I wasn't happy before taking mood stabilisers, and I think any other medication will make me feel just as flat/level, I mean thats the point of meds isn't it? I'm not interested in trying out a med that doesn't make me gain weight if it will make me feel flat. I don't want to feel flat, I want to experience my emotions. When I say flat I don't mean depressed, I mean neither depressed nor happy, somewhere in feelingless land. Feelings are good and I want them back. So I can feel like getting out of bed in the morning, and feel like exercising, without having to force myself to do it because there doesn't seem to be any point.