Yearning, ultimately, whatever you end up doing will be the right thing for you. You know how you feel, you are the expert on you. People on PC et al. don't have this insight on you, your therapy or the relationship with your current T that you do. So, yes, any thread asking for opinions is bound to contain diverse and contradictory advice. But don't let this throw you, go with what you feel will help -you-

If you want to try, and look for, a queer T then by all means follow this urge or need. Don't worry so much. It seems you want to do the right thing but aren't sure what it is. There might not be a 'perfect' solution & it might take trial and error to reach but ultimately, you will find the right (might not be 'perfect') solution for you. Don't stress so much, let it go & follow your instincts.

There is nothing wrong with you. Life can just be rather complicated and confusing at times. We can only try to muddle through as best we can by following what we feel is right... for us.