Sometimes I feel I should cry but I can't. The only time I can cry is when undo angry and frustrated it's either cry it demolish something. In those instances I refuse to cry especially if I'm not alone. So instead I damage my hand by punching things. Crack knuckles, I've even popped a tendon.

Does anyone else experience an inability to cry? Why is it I feel numb or angry and don't cry? My sister died in my arms I didn't cry. My life fell apart, I drank a lot to not dream and it worked at first but then the dreams came back with a vengeance. I drank more and more just wanting to die. And it wouldn't happen. Why?