After about a year and a half of being divorced, the denial lifted about 6 months ago and had to face we were over. I wrote my ex husband a letter about how cruelly he ended the marriage and the mistreatment I had to live with. I held on to that letter for months. Last Saturday I got a letter from him telling me he thinks of me daily and all the things he wanted to do for me. It infuriated me. After not hearing from him in such a long time, how dare he be kind now. It unhinged me and I cried and cried. It ripped off the healing scab right off and I was back to square one.

I knew contact had to end so I sent him the letter with a note saying I had loved him with all my heart and a part of me always would but he needed to hear the truth. The day he got the letter, which wasn't kind, his mother died.
I don't feel better having sent that letter. But I knew for contact to end I had to. I don't know why I feel so sad. But I really do.