Thank you all so much for your replies, they really mean a lot to me. I've (almost) found myself a part-time job and everything. It's just that I don't have the heart to tell it to my dad, since he's the only one working right now and probably won't like my idea. I'm really trying to fix my relationship with my mom but it doesn't last more than a week. I don't want to give a very bad impression, since I am sure that my life is much better off comparing to others on earth. I guess I'm just emotionally weak and can't take much.

Maybe I should get therapy too? Just a thought.

Anyways, moving on to the more optimistic view, I am really thankful for all the support. I really don't think I would have made it this far in life without all the nice people.