I hate exercise too!



what are we going to do with you?! Lol I'm glad you decided to take it, but I think that you need to make a list of pros and cons of taking the 4mg so that, if you decide that the tablets are best, every time you think about not taking it you have a list of logical reasons why you should. Maybe write them on a post it note and stick it to the bottle? You have to take the tablets for YOU, not because we nag you. I don't want you to resent us or feel like you can't tell us that you've stopped them if that's what you decide to do.

Sorry Erti! I'd hate for anyone to use my MI against me like that

Yeah I like the secret garden metaphor. This board feels safe, there's no fighting like elsewhere, and I think we are more open minded to others' experiences because we've had unusual beliefs ourselves.

I'm sorry you're seeing the bone birds a lot. Would you feel safe enough to ask your wife if your thoughts are delusional etc? I understand the idea of having different versions of oneself and trying to reconcile them cos I have sick me, family me and professional me, and I struggle with knowing if any of them are actually me

Nice to hear from you Alonewithmycat! IRL I don't really like hugs, though I've taught myself to tolerate hugs with my friends cos they're very huggy people. I prefer it when I can initiate the hug cos then I'm in control. But here I give lots of hugs, because I think of it as a mental hug than a physical hug, sort of to soften what I write to show that I empathise since there is no body language. I'm sorry that your psychologist is frustrated, but that's something they need to get over if you're to work together to overcome this ((mental hug))

Nice to hear from you Justmeandmyhead!

I'm sorry that you're struggling Atypical I hope that the haldol helps and that pdoc will switch you back to that.

I've felt quite frustrated today, getting irritated at tiny things. I helped my parents put up chicken wire against the fence because Max keeps jumping the wall and terrorising Muslim women and we live on a main road. He doesn't like when their faces are covered with the niqab cos he can't see if they're friendly or not. But the other day he barked at this woman and jumped the wall so she ran screaming onto the road and he followed, though stopped barking, and wouldn't come back cos he thought it was a game, and I was scared he'd get run over. Anyway he can't get out now.

Then I went with my parents, sister and dogs for a walk. I wanted to take some photos because it was sunny, though cold, but they wouldn't come out right. I set up a deviantART account yesterday though, and plan to upload some of my stuff to show you guys when it's ready.

** TRIGGER WARNING**
Anyway I came home and found a letter from the dog charity about the dog I sponsor. I haven't been sponsoring him long, but they wrote to say that he was put down. Apparently his anxiety got worse and he was hurting himself and nothing the vet or behaviourist did helped, so they put him to sleep because he was so distressed. Then I thought about how I'd be if I was a dog with my symptoms and would they put me to sleep too, and started crying. Obviously euthanasia is a hugely complicated issue and I don't really want to get into it because I'm quite conflicted about it, but I just wanted to say that it made me feel very sad

*Willow*