Hi Meli,

My depression worsened during a period when I believed my relationship with God was at its strongest. My memory worsened and my mind became numb. It made no sense that God would take from me the very thing that I needed to keep a good relationship going. But, whether or not I feel him, I've come to realize he's still around. There are always signs, but sometimes we're too down to notice. I still talk to him because he knows what I'm going through, and I don't have to apologize for it. Faith is knowing--it's a deep conviction that says despite the muddle in my head and general disinterest in life, God is still with me and will continue to be with me through this challenge