Fayc,

You've been through so much, and I admire your courage to share your experiences with us. I also admire your aim to be a healthier person and father. I sincerely wish you the best. I agree with 'Open Eyes' responses. Many times abusers have also been through abuse. In time, you will understand the roots of their dysfunction and be able to forgive them and carry on with your own healing. And hey, if you do end up writing a book about your life, just tell me where to buy it. You have my support.