It does sound like bipolar, but obviously no one can make a diagnosis over the internet, because it could be other things as well. I have bipolar II and GAD, and I can relate to a lot of what you described. That's terrible that you went through that abuse. I hope you are able to connect with a good pdoc or other mental health professional to get an accurate diagnosis and find a way to process and come to terms with your trauma. Stick around this site and you might find more insight into the experience of bipolar to see if it fits for you. Best of luck!