Hugs, hugs and more hugs to you seekersinking!!!
It sounds like that depression has a real fight on it's hands!! And I really don't envy it, knowing how tough you can be at times!!
And really impressed by your approach!! It can be SO easy to get sucked in, and like you said there may/will still be some bad times, but if you can just keep on trying to let it know you're still there, you're still you that's got to help a bit in fronting it out.
And you know that we're still with you to try to help you through the bad times, don't you?? And when you feel like you need a break from the fighting we're here to understand, hear you, and support you until you're ready to fight it again.
Here's to the road ahead!!
Alison