I have bp2 and could really relate to.what you were talking about. It sounds like you have bp and.gad too. But.I am not a Dr and it would really help for you to find one. It's really hard to get help when you don't have supportivs parent or people who may not understand. Alot of times schools.have free or very inexpensive mental health care. You should check into it. Also.in my state there is county physical and mental.health clinics that are free or take payments that are on reduced scale depending on yr income. I'm so sorry you are.suffering so much. I've been exactly where you are. You have done some great research which hopefully gives you some.comfort knowing that yr symptoms are very real. Being sexually abused is one of the worst abuse out there. It robs us of our innocence and.makes us not trust others and worse off makes us not even trust ourselves. Keep coming back to this site add you'll find alot of common issues and alot.of support. I hope I've helped you. You have great insight into mental health which will help you in yr healing. Feel free to pm me anytime. I'll be.praying for you.

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