I was happy when I filed but now it has been 18 months and he has dragged the divorce on and on. I am depressed now. I also switched jobs and do not like the new job. Basically, i HOPE to feel tremendous happiness and relief when we are finally divorced but worry that I will not. He is a controlling abuser who is using the legal system and the divorce to continue to punish me for leaving him. Do you think I will feel happier when it is finally over?