I am so tired of being a virgin. I'm so tired of never having anything even remotely close to a sexual encounter. I've never been kissed. Never even hit on. This makes me feel undesirable. But on a physical level, I want to have sex so badly it can be painful. I think about it all the time and yet I am beyond terrified of sex.

I know I need to be patient and work through my issues regarding intimacy first. But it's not like I could move too fast and not wait to be healthy because I'm so scared of it that I can't even talk to men out of fear that something sexual might happen.

I'm just so painfully frustrated and I want someone to want me. I don't know how to combat this. It makes me feel so lonely and useless.