Another thing that I noticed: When I was 20, my long-time pals always had time to hang out. At 33, no one has time anymore. I haven't heard from several good pals in years Everyone just got so busy and I felt left behind. Remember the good ol' days of your early 20's, when you went on adventures with friends and partied. You're gonna miss them a decade later No one in their 30's has time for anything. They're all raising kids, going back to school, working, etc. Proximity becomes the glue that holds relationships together. If you live an hour away, you're likely never going to hear from anyone. Next block over and they'll be pestering you (in a good way) every day. I quit social media a year ago because I got fed up with it and it felt like poison to my soul. My friends have my phone number. They know where I live. Who doesn't have 5 mins once a year to drop me a line? Nobody is that damn busy. Luckily, I have my three close friends and best friend to support me these days, but they are people who, for lack of a better phrase... don't have much of a life... same as me. In my early 20's I was all career-oriented. Starting a family was something I never wanted to think about, nor desired in any way. I wanted to have a badass career and live comfortably in my own big house with a nice car; to come home to my pets every day and sit and chill in the peace and quiet. I would say that the third decade is a nasty introduction to disappointment and failure, which is why many of my friends had to go back to school and still have crappy jobs I miss being 20. I was fearless and stronger. Life molded me into a useless ball of paralyzed mush after awhile. You get beaten down every day for three decades, you eventually just want to die. You make impressively responsible decisions and do everything right only to have injuries and disease take all of your hard work away in a second. You just get to the point to where you see that fighting is pointless because you're just going to do it forever. Once you get to the point to where you HOPE there isn't an afterlife because you are THAT tired of being aware, then you know where I'm coming from.