You said your pdoc appointment isn't until June. It sounds like from what you are saying you need an appointment sooner than that. You may not have one scheduled till June, but contact your pdoc to try and schedule one sooner. I don't know if risperdal is the only anti-psychotic that works for your, but there are others that don't increase your prolactin level like risperdal does. Talk to your pdoc about switching if possible. You are NOT less of a woman. Beating yourself up over medication side effects just makes you feel worse. Be gentle with yourself.