I don't have an answer for you. Several of my own guess about me. Drink to self medicate, drink to FEEL something. Drink because our inside selves know that it disinhibits us to do the stupid things. Drink because it lets the parts of us become more available to eachother. I am not speaking DID, just dissociation disorder. I know that it's an unsafe thing for me to do. I have noticed others who do major sh while under the influence. It's a theme for a lot of people. Does this give you any ideas?