Am I silly for thinking I am severely depressed at the low points of my cycles when I can still smile and get happy? I am also suicidal, but I don't tell people about that. My friends think I'm OK, they even thought I was completely fine one week after my suicide attempt. Is it so hard to believe that you can be very depressed and still smile genuinely when someone says something funny? I wear a mask when I'm depressed, so maybe I never seem depressed at all. My previous psychologist and doctor said I was mildly depressed when I didn't have the motivation to do almost anything at all, and I slept 12 hours a day, I just sat in the couch for the remaining hours of every day, and I contemplated suicide every hour of every day. But I seemed happy, so how could I be severely depressed? I feel like no one believes me. I am in the psych ward now, my contact thought I was happy here. I am not. I hate this place.