<font color="purple">Thank you for the website DJ! I really hope that it is in the right direction, I thought I had been on that road, but with this new information I see that I am actually very blessed that I didnt have a more servere break than I have had .... I look back at those episodes and thankfully I was in enough right mind to get help before it got out of control and got hurt or hurt someone else...... its kind of scary to think that I might be closer to having a "normal" mind set, life, and better sense of reality... I know it will still take time and probably will be some adjusting.... </font>