I have been wondering what the difference is between agitated depression and dysphoric mania and the role of anxiety. Here is an interesting link:

What is the difference between bipolar anxiety & bipolar agitation? - Bipolar Disorder - Sharecare

It appears that the several day nightmare I had earlier was dysphoric mania. I did not feel grandious in an obvious way. But despite my life feeling as though it was falling apart, I felt I still had things under control and ready to take over my meds (which is ridiculous) and do whatever it took to extricate myself from this terrible situation. Then moments of panic would set in as I struggled to get this "monkey" off my back that has my tied my down against my will, where I see nothing but disaster coming my way, and that I needed to check myself in to the hospital before I lose it. But more recently I have been irritable and agitated, and at other times, sad, fatigued, and out of energy. This seems more like agitated depression. There seems to be rapid cycling somehow involved. Still, I guess all that matters is that it hurts, with some episodes allot worse than others.

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