Well, this has been an interesting day. I didn't feel so unemployed today because it is Sunday, so I cleaned house, gardened, chopped down about 1/2 acre of weeds with a scythe, detailed my girlfriend's car, went to Home Depot, went grocery shopping, barbecued, planned a camping trip, did a spreadsheet comparing graduate programs in geography. Yeah. And that was when I was in a nice place.

Then about 5 pm I started to get irritable. Then it was better, worse, better. Just bouts of irritability. At 9pm I started throwing things and got into one of those bizarre fights [verbal] with gf, where I am able to pin her in a corner [you really, really do not want to argue with a bipolar trial attorney] verbally.

Finally, at about 10pm I just collapsed into a puddle of tear. I just took 10mg of Saphris, which usually knocks me out instantly, but here I am ....zoom, zoom. The thought crosses my mind that I should go to the hospital.

I've never felt this way. Maybe. I'm confused.

Thanks for being here and reading this far.
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