I don't want to study. I can't enjoy life. There's no way in hell that I will go to university or college. I'm smart too. Smarter than most in my class. So what the hell?.

I don't know where my life is going to go. Suicide isn't an option anymore. I won't do that ever. I don't think of myself as depressed and yet I got a 71 (severe depression) on the depression test. Believe me that I'm not depressed.

What is going to happen to me?

I can't stand this. I can't stand people. I always think to myself, how can a teacher spend their days teaching a whole class when I can't even get up in the morning? What do they have in them that I don't..