I am so nervous...my T doesn't do sessions more than once a week typically - I asked at one point when things were really tough. And she agreed to see me twice a week for a couple of weeks.

I am going to call her tomorrow and ask to do twice a week for a little while. I have been really struggling. I was sexually assaulted a couple of weeks ago, and I was able to get in twice that week (an emergency session type thing), but went back to my normal Friday session the next week.

I realized after this last session that I really do trust her -- and it scares me. Like I think I may be ready to really dive into the big/hard/scary stuff. I have been TRYING to get to it, but I keep deflecting and distracting from it. But with all that's been going on...even without really getting into that stuff a week has been just TOO LONG. I don't think I can handle going into it without more support.

I am hoping I can actually talk to her on the phone rather than just to the receptionist.

But I am so scared...about asking for more sessions...about getting into all of this. I have been feeling the need to ask for more, but I haven't had the money for additional sessions - thankfully I have insurance, but my co-pay is $22/session for a full 60 minutes. Today I sold my iPhone 5s for $550, so I am going to use some of that money to pay for extra sessions. I definitely need it.

Anyway...thanks for listening. I'm going to call first thing in the morning and hope she can call me back sometime in the morning.