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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse
I can be horrifically depressed, wanting to die and thinking about crashing my car into a tree at 80 MPH, and yet I get up and go to work every day and do what I need to do. It's called "presenting well", and I'm an expert at it. I'll be going totally crazy on the inside, and all that shows on the outside is unusual quietness and being withdrawn.
Mania is not so easy to hide, although I can mask it pretty well in the hypomanic phase and only people who know me really well can tell that I'm ramping up. Some folks have told me they would've never guessed I'm bipolar because I appear so "normal". LOL
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Thank you for this post. I worry a lot about being judged and not believed, because my hypomania too is rarely visible to most people, even here in the psych ward. They don't notice that I speak twice as fast, that I talk maybe four times as much, that I lack social inhibition etc, etc, because I try not to let the hypomania control my behavior and show so much. I feel like a lightning storm and a tornado inside of me though.
