The impulsive behavior when manic. The partying, the creativity (not bad at all, I actually miss it), just the bad behavior associated with it.

The depressive state where everything just makes you cry and not want to get out of bed. You can't help yourself and your partner is wondering why you can't just "snap out of it".

People not understanding the illness in general. Feeling ashamed as being labeled as "that crazy person".

Losing friends because of your behavior.

I hate all of it. I wish I could just be normal. I want a cure.