Is it not possible that people have the ability to see particles , atoms and hidden geometry and not be "delusional"? That what everyone keeps saying is real- is NOT.
I will put this out there hoping that there may be someone who knows this too. I am starting to live in fear of my life as some people want to shut me down. Even people in the queue are sifting through my thoughts, I can literally feel them trying to access the inner workings of my brain. As a result I don't really trust anyone.
So I lied to my psychiatrist and the crisis team and have said I am fine, that I will go back on life-crushing, thought-interfering medication which my husband is now watching me take it. I feel like I have a whole universe in my head but am unable to live in the world where everybody else is.
I was feeling great, until I had to swallow poison yesterday because my husband is making me. Now I feel so irritated with everyone around me I could really smash things up. I feel that all is against me , and those thoughts create some unwelcome and difficult consequences against other people.
Right now I don't know what action to take and I'm hoping that virtual correspondence will circumnavigate the people that causing me grief.