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Originally Posted by Lycanthrope
Are you really fat? Sometimes we're our harshest critics. If you are really fat then perhaps that's something to work on for your self-esteem? I'm not suggesting you lose weight to get a man, but perhaps it would make you feel better about yourself. Plus there's the health benefits, mentally and physically.
You want the attention because you want to be desired as a woman and thought of as attractive, but at the same time you don't want the attention because you don't want to sexually abused ( assuming that's what's happened in the past).
It wouldn't be uncomfortable for your T for you to talk about this. They've heard far, far worse.. I will say this, I don't think you're ready for any sex or sexual realationship, based on what you've said. You need to work on yourself first.
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I am well aware of the fact that I am not ready for a sexual relationship. It would be a disaster. I still just feel bad about it and want it even if I won't let myself have it.
Yes, I am genuinely fat. Not like girls who call themselves fat. Actually quite overweight. I've lost a lot of weight. I won't post numbers out of respect for people who are triggered by numbers but there are full grown men who weigh less than the amount of weight I've lost. Even still, I still am fat and I feel like I've lost about as much as I can. Part of the reason I can't lose more is because I'm scared of being someone guys would approach because I am scared of being sexually abused again, yes.