Google "anhedonia". It's like depression but you don't feel sad. You just feel nothing. It's the main symptom of anxiety or schizophrenia such as that and schizoid.

My psychiatrist says I'm not depressed because he says I don't feel sad and yet I attempted suicide so I don't know. My psychologist says I am though.

I'm getting a new psychiatrist because mine just doesn't want to prescribe needs it seems and wants me to stay on my current ones.

But the hell with everything god damn