I try to be ideal but then that backfires....cause then my T is left holding the clipboard like wtf?!? Why is she coming again? How can I be helpful here?

Yeah. I have problems but struggle to articulate them. T seems to believe I'm trying to be an "easy" client. He almost begs me to need him. I refuse because.....I think I'm need-phobic. I'm the opposite of the client who calls outside of hours or needs stuff from T that T can't give. I suck.