I strongly suggest taking your meds. Once your mind clears, then make the decision as to what you are going to do next. You can always undo your choice to follow your pdoc. But consider this. I am very sorry that this may come across strong to you, but what is your marriage worth to you? Or your children if you have any?

Good meds take a period of time to find. Along the way there will still be some bad bumps. But IMO as long as you get somewhere that is stable, it will be all worth it.

Wish you well!

tucson

@HappyCamper: A very creative post! However, if my life was charted over time, it would look more like a drunken sailor instead of a tree.