(I don't mean to offend anyone, I just couldn't think of a better way to describe my feelings at the moment)
Anyways- I feel like there is something fundamentally wrong with me.
I don't know how to make friends anymore.
I have a limited mental and emotional capacity, and after its fill with my minimal friends, acquaintances, coworkers, etc, I simply am overloaded and can't add anyone new into my mind- like I probably am just retarded- probably have something to do with my cutting back on sugar and coffee-
I also think I was a bit 'psycho-social' when I used to smoke pot and my brain is still recovering. I'm more the quiet type and the people I was friendly with before are acting like I went crazy or something- I just feel like a ****ing failure in the social world. I've talked to therapists in the past about being diagnosed with being on the low end of the autistic spectrum but haven't. I don't know. I just suck.