My boo thang and I had a tiff last weekend about him not respecting my time. It got complicated because he blew me off for family. So, if I say anything, it sounds like I'm trying to get between him and his family.

Last night, he was supposed to come stay with me (he lives out of town) after a concert. He said "after 10", so I assumed that meant shortly thereafter. Anyway, I called at 11 and he said that the show just got out and that he was going to hang with his fam for an indeterminate amount of time. I got annoyed and told him to give me a general frame so that I could plan my night. He got into this rant about how he's bad with time and overbooks and that's how he is and I have to accept that. I called him out for lacking consideration for my time, being selfish by expecting me to wait, and not caring about my feelings. He accused me of making things too serious, which is bull.

Anyway, he said he didn't know if he wanted to come over anymore but then changed his mind and said he would head over in 20. An hour later, he sent a text saying, "I'm drinking with my ma tonight. sorry." He then turned off his phone.

I feel so disrespected by him. I haven't bothered him and he hasn't contacted me, so I'm sure it's over. I didn't do anything wrong! If he hadn't made plans with me, then I wouldn't have cared how much time he spent with his fam. All I did was communicate my feelings kindly and tell him that it is not OK to disrespect me or my time.

I know I deserve better and that he is not the one and blah blah blah--but it doesn't matter. This hurts like Hell! So many guys are so nice for months and then suddenly huge jerks!!!! Everyone is getting into relationships and flings all of the time but me! I'm never attracted to people and whenever the rare occasion occurs that I am, it NEVER works out.

I am SO SICK of being single.

Do things that I enjoy, better myself Blah blah blah--I do! I'm a successful person.

Nothing is going well in my life and this is the one thing that brought me any joy. I have been crying ever since.

I seriosuly feel that I will never be happy because everyone is awful.

I don't know what o do. I can't stop crying. I am beautiful, smart, kind, interesting, and a good communicator. WHY THE **** IS THIS NOT ENOUGH?! The dullest and meanest people I know have better luck than me.

I can't do this anymore.